Sunday, December 30, 2012
23 and Counting [A Year Ender Note]
Thursday, August 9, 2012
How Do You Sleep?
how do you even sleep?
Playing for God V.S. Playing in a Band
THE MOTIVE IS LOVE THE MOTIVE IS A CREATIVE OUTLET / MUSICAL EXCELLENCE
IT'S NOT ABOUT ME IT'S ABOUT ME, AND MY BAND
SKILL IS NOT THE PREREQUISITE OF SKILL IS THE LITMUS TEST FOR
SUCCESS SUCCESS
YOU PLAY FOR THE PEOPLE OF GOD YOU PLAYING FOR THE CROWD
YOU DON'T GET PAID BUT YOU ARE YOU SOMETIMES GET PAID, BUT
DEFINITELY REWARDED THE SATISFACTION IS MOMENTARY
THE PURPOSE IS TO THE PURPOSE IS TO CREATE
GLORIFY OUR GOD GREAT MUSIC
from: http://findingmaruko.multiply.com
A Sad Story
I never knew why, but the message struck me. I got up and pushed the keys... I just realized I was replying to the message. "I'm not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, im not superman... I'm just a simple person who u wake up at this hour of my night!!! Anyway, do I know u?" I typed. Seconds later came the reply. "Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b
Micaella brought out something about me that I never knew I had; I realized I could also be a romantic person... even if it's just through text messaging.
Lock it up & throw away d key so that no1 can ever
One day, she sent this message to me. I replied:
f u ever find 1, hold on & never let go... value that
because u will never know just wen they will walk out
of
I couldn't understand what I felt that moment, but one thing I was sure though... I could not go on a day without a single word from her. I'd become used to having her, even though we had not met personally. But truly, she already occupied a space, a large one, in fact in my life. I texted her back.
pass by; don't touch me f l8r you'll just let me cry;
dont love me f l8r you'll jst leave me and won't stay..."
I didn't know why I sent her that message, but somehow I felt, every word came from my heart. In the short span of time we were sending messages to each other, I knew, I was starting to keep her in my heart. I called her once. The voice on the other end was like an angel's. Soft, kind, full of love. Yet, there was something in it I couldn't define. We only talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she told me not to call again. According to her, it would be better if we would just text each other. But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but in my heart, I'd long to hear it once more. I tried to call her again, but she never answered the phone. She just kept on sending messages and quotations, which I copied in a little notebook.
close my eyes & there you are. Even if I'll see u never,
I'll always b here 2 care for u, far longer than 4ever..."
One December night, she sent me this message. By that time we had been exchanging messages for more than a month. God knew how happy I was. She was right. Although we had not seen each other, what we felt was enough to make us both realize what was keeping us together. I sent her another message,
a hard thing for me to do, hoping, wondering that you
will feel d same way 2, but I can't read r mind f
u love me too. But whatever it is, I'll still be
loving you."
"How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2
me, but m afraid 2 love, scared 2 get hurt... I
hope that u will wait 4 me & pray that u will not
get tired of loving me...=)"
And then I replied again.
is because of destiny but f destiny will suggest dat
I'll live w/o u, den, I'll lie not by destiny but
of free will."
Whenever I asked her when we would meet personally, she always answered, "Soon...soon, love...soon." Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit, what I felt for her...rather, it even grew deeper and stronger each day. And I was sure, she felt the same way, too. Love messages continued to flow through our lines, between our hearts, which made us go on each day with the thought that sooner, we would see each other, face to face, heart to heart. Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped sending messages. At first I just though she had ran out of prepaid. But there was something that kept bothering me... I couldn't understand what was it, but it made me fell nervous. I tried to call her but she wouldn't answer. Nevertheless, I continued sending messages.
them or we stopped 2 care. Sometimes, GOODBYE is a
painful way 2 say I LOVE YOU."
I was dumbfounded. I didn't know what to think of. What did she mean? I texted her back, searching for answers, but found nothing. I called her but she would not answer. For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable...desperate... empty. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to lose her. I had learned to love her. And I wanted to be with her forever. The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It seemed that Mikaella took the life out of me. I missed her so much...her messages...The tones that would tell me she'd sent another loving message. Nothing around me could feel the emptiness I felt.
Tut...tut...tut...tut...tut...just a day before Christmas, my cell beeped again. It was her! "Meet me at d cafe,
smiling at me. She was very beautiful, Black, deep-set eyes that spoke a thousand words; small, kissable lips; a nose perfectly chiseled and long black hair - everything in her was beautiful. And yes, her eyes radiated kindness and love...but there was a flicker of something in them...sadness?
"Hi, Marcus," said the angelic voice I had been dreaming of each night. The voice that I had waited to hear for so long. "Please sit down”. “I am very pleased to meet you, Micaella," I said, as I took my seat and gave the roses I brought for her. "Thanks, Marcus," she smiled, obviously pleased with the roses. I knew she loved pink roses. "You are always welcome, Love", "Marcus, I can't stay," she said, sadness in her voice, or was it tears? "I really must go." "But we just met, Micaella. Can't we talk a little longer?" I asked, pleadingly. "I can't really.I just came here to see you and thank you for the time you shared with me. Thank you for everything, Marcus. I will never forget you...you will always be here in my heart."
She was looking at me straight into the eyes, and I could really feel the sadness in her voice and I swear, there was something in her voice and I swear, there was something in those lovely yet lonely eyes... She got up and smiled at me, lovingly.
"Tomorrow morning, please come and visit me," she said and gave me a piece of white linen paper. I read what was written and when I looked up, she was gone. The following day, Christmas, I woke up early and excitedly readied myself, thinking of her. I hurriedly went to flower shop and bought a dozen pink roses - for Mikaella.
They lived in an exclusive subdivision. Upon reaching their house, I told the guard who I was and that I was looking for Micaella. The guard stared at me, sadness and amazement in his eyes and told me to wait as he called the owner of the house. As I looked at him while he was going inside the house, only then I noticed that the house was brightly lit.
A woman went out and walked towards me, smiling sadly. "Hi, I'm Maria, Micaella's mother. Please come inside, Marcus." While we were walking towards the mansion, she explained to me why she knew me very well - Micaella had always been talking about her friend, Julius. I hardly understood what she was saying. I was busy thinking why Micaella's mother was crying while talking to me.
She held my hand and silently, led me to the coffin which was surrounded by flowers – pink roses, nothing but pink-roses. No words could explain how I felt when I gazed at the coffin and saw who was lying there. The same beautiful girl I met... A man came beside me, I knew he was Mica's father. "We are so glad you came, Julius. Mica talked of you all the time. She even asked that her phone be buried with her.
She said that in that way, you could still send her messages and you would always be with her." I couldn't believe everything... My mind was in limbo. "But how can this be? We just saw each other yesterday."
"That can't possibly be. She passed away three days ago. She had been suffering from a heart disease since she was a child," said her father.
"She told us not to bother reaching you, "her mother said, still in tears," she said you will come, and here you are.
Pain and bitterness overwhelmed me. I cried silently beside her, staring at her lovely face, memorizing every line of my friend's face, a face I knew I would never forget while I was still alive. After the internment that afternoon, I went to the chapel she had told me she went everyday.
Sitting there praying and crying to God, I held my phone and typed:
me how 2 be kind; you showed me how 2 like some; u showed
me how 2 love; but there's 1 thing didn't teach me & it
hurts more - u didn't teach me how 2 let go. I LOVE YOU"
I sent the message, and though I knew she wouldn't be able to hold her CP again, I knew in my heart she would get my message. I never expected a reply, yet as my phone beeped again, felt a shiver down my spine. The sender's number did not appear on the screen, and tears rolled down my cheeks as I read the message.
"Let go of d hand of d person u love, but don't let
go of God's hand. For if u hold 2 his hand. He may be
holding d person you love and the other hand 2 let u hold
each other again."
"I will never forget you, Micaella and i will never let go..." I vowed to her and to myself as I left the church.
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Maribeth and Kathleen [Mother and Daughter]
You can see it in their eyes,in tender hugs and long good-byes,a love that only moms and daughters know.
You can see it in their smiles,through passing years and changing styles,a friendship that continually seems to grow.
You can see it in their lives,the joy each one of them derives,in just knowing that the other one is there...
To care and to understand,lend an ear or hold a hand,and to celebrate the memories they share.
Sunday, February 5, 2012
All About BANGUNGOT
A "BANGUNGOT" is a very rare breed of "ENGKANTO" ho seem to get attracted to people ho are in despair, lonely and in pain.
The Bangungot wander until it finds someone and clings onto that person, deciding to take care oh his wounded heart, so whenever that man feel jealous or spurned or unwanted, he feels this dull pain clutch his chest. He think it's "HEARTACHE", but it's actually the Bangungot holding on to his heart, trying to prevent it from breaking.
In a matter of days or weeks, the Bangungot becomes more protective over the man and it just keeps on embracing him ever so tighter, squeezing his heart until, unwittingly, it brings his heart to a stop, forcing the last breath out of the man's dry lips.
The Bangungot will later realize what it has done and will cry over her lover. It's tears will cover it's lover's face and sometimes his body.
If you make the mistake of tasting those dewdrops left on the man's cheeks, it will taste like the sweetest honey and cause you to go on a deep depression for weeks.
After the Bangungot had cried all its tears, it becomes this mist like substance, leaving this sickly sweet scent hanging in the air as if there's a nearby tree with too much fruit to bear.