The New Inspiration

Kasama ko lang naman yung isa sa mga inspiration ko ngayon para sa December 2011 NLE at sya ay walang iba kundi si Ms. Raei Faye Q. Mercado.

This photo was taken last November 18, 2011 at Succeed Review Center, Boodle Fight namin nyan and yung night na yun yung isa sa mga best night ng buhay ko. Uhm, i really like her so much and yung mismong day din na yun ako nagtapat ng feelings ko para sa kanya. Alam ko maraming magbabago sa pagtatapat ko sa kanya ng nararamdaman ko pero kahit anong mangyari, di ako magbabago sa kanya at palagi lang akong nasa tabi nya.

F.A.C.E

Large lips in the motionTrying to keep blaming onAs I say reason I'm late onFind you turningLaughing and smiling

Running over sometimesFeel like you leave me behindNow you don't have to mind itFind you shiningEveryday by day

Sing it up, my sisterIn this world which everyone is lonelyEverything will be fine someday

RememberPlaying in a backyardHiding myself in garageSince you never could catch meFind you cryingWeeping in darkness

Sing it up, my sisterIn this world which everyone is lonelyEverything will be fine somedaySome other day

Large lips in the motionTrying to keep blaming onAs I say reason I'm late onFind you turningLaughing and smiling

Sing it up, my sisterIn this world which everyone is lonelyEverything will be fineSome other day

Sing it up, my sisterIn this world which everyone is lonelyEverything will be fine somedaySome other daySome other day

dedicated to:
Maggie Antonio [my sister]

Eye Of The Storm

The Streets they smile

When traffic light turn green

Counting cars as they pass us by

1,2,3 baby count on me

And i know it's been raining so hard these days

And you've been dying to true love's face

And it's cold, And it's cold

I know, I'll keep you warm tonight

Despite all the storms

I seem to find some refuge in your smile

The glimmer in your eyes, my angel in disguise

My angel is staring at me now

And its cold, and its cold

I know, I'll keep you warm tonight

- a little something after the July 2011 board exam. wala lang, i just wanted to dedicate this one to you, kilala mo naman kung sino ka, i know naman na mapapadaan ka dito at makikita mo 'to. ayun, sana lang nagkasama tayo kanina kaya lang may kasama ka din. ayun, i wish the best for us and i know by tommorow, RN na tayo. thank you for believing in me, sa support at sa prayers.

Panalangin Sa Panahon Ng Bagyo [Prayer In The Time Of Storm]

aming ama sa kalangitan

[our father in heaven]

diyos ng ulap, hangin at ulan

[god of the clouds, wind and rain]

lubos kang makapangyarihan

[you are most powerful]

sa iyo'y nagkukubli

[we seek shelter]

nawa'y pakinggan

[hear our pleas]

ngayong araw ng di katiyakan

[on this day of uncertainty]

hanap nami'y basbas

[we seek your blessing]

pagbuhos mong gabay

[pour forth your guidance unto us]

sa pahamak, ilihis

[lead us away from danger]

iadya sa sakuna

[protect us from disaster]

iligtas sa panganib na bumabadya

[save us from the coming perils]

nang sa agos ng dalamhati'y, di matangay

[that we may not be swept away by the deluge of sorrow]

patawarin kaming may sala

[forgive us sinners]

sa aming kapabayaan

[for our carelessness]

sa aming kakulangan

[for our shortcomings]

marapatin ninyo na sanang

[may you let it come to pass]

kami ay magising

[that we wake up]

sa muling pagsikat ng araw

[as the sun rises anew]

umaapaw sa pananampalatayang

[overflowing with faith]

sa inyong kadakilaan

[that in your greatness]

walang hindi maaari

[nothing is impossible]

amen.

Still Fly 2011

now playing: Friends Forever by Vitamin C

Its been a while since my last one! Well, the past few days and weeks have been busy, man it was so tiring! (i was skateboarding the whole week). But I still have some time for this one anyway. And you care to ask me what’s up? Well, not much. I’m still the same old brand new me... Hahaha. (parang A1 yata yun ah). Heto, I’m still listening to my old records (Kamikazee, Chicosci, Typecast, Hawthorne Heights, Urbandub, Alesana, Killswitch Engaged, Silent Sanctuary, etc.) and it so BORING! (haha, joke lang). I was wondering when will I get a new one kaya? Ay, hindi pala, pera nga pala ang kailangan ko. Haha. I demand a re-fund! kahit 1k lang. Haha. (if you know what I mean). Well, I just finished cleaning my white shoes and preparing the clothes that i will wear tomorrow and I’m so happy to say, and I’ve come to realize it just lately, that "I JUST GOT PASSED COLLEGE!" It’s almost over. I deserve a pat on the back. Wuhoooooo! Now I can say that the Nursing Course is "EASY". Haha. Well… actually "IT’S NOT". I’ve suffered a lot together with my other batchmates (if you also know what i mean). So for those thinking to take-up BSN, 2 words: "BE PREPARED". Be very prepared ‘cause you’ll experience a lot of epistaxis, syncope, vertigo and a lot of f****ng variety of mood disorders. Kung mal-adaptive ka pa eh baka mauwi pa sa suicidal attempt and substance induce psychiatric disorder. Buti nalang I live by the principle “It’s better to cheat than to repeat”. Haha. Ayun, nakaraos kahit papano. Joke. Anyway, it’s been one hell of a journey. As I always say to myself, it’s the trip, not the destination and "experience is not what happens to a man, it's what a man does with himself." Yan ata mga motto ko sa yearbook. Hehe. Hay... namiss ko tuloy bigla yung hospital duty, lalu na graveyard shift. Sarap matulog eh. Pati narin yung naging make-up duty ko, namiss ko din bigla. Haha.. wala lang... nagrereminisce lang. Well... watch out on April 9,2011, tomorrow, because... it’s our Graduation Day. Yeah! you've read it right, graduation na talaga namin bukas. And after five years, nakagraduate din. If it so happened that you guys and gals read this blog accidentally, whoever you are, whether you are a friend or foe, relatives or not, gays or lesbians, saints or demons, virgins or sluts, rockers or hip hoppers, super heroes or villains, don’t hesitate to congratulate me, ‘cause it means a lot to me.

bang! bang! bang!

apir!!!*

Marco C. Antonio

BPSU 2011

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Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.

Finding -Marco- Harlequin Lover™

Perfect Tears

EVERY ONE WANTS TO LOVE AND BE LOVED. LOVE COMES IN MANY FORMS AND IN DIFFERENT INTENSITIES; BUT WHEN PEOPLE THINK OF LOVE THEY THINK OF THAT BETWEEN A COUPLE AND A LOVER. BUT DOES LOVE REALLY THE ANSWER TO AN EMPTY SPACE IN OUR HEART?

Russell IS TOTALLY COOL, ROMANTIC, NICE PERSON, A WISE MAN AND MOST OF ALL HE IS GOOD LOOKING. MANY GIRLS ADMIRE HIM BECAUSE OF HIS WELL-BUILD POSTURE AND FOR BEING ATHLETIC and for being good in playing instruments. HE IS A skateboarder, A Power forward in the school basketball team, an excellent vocalist/guitarist AND A REPRESENTATIVE OF HIS SCHOOL. A PERFECT GUY WE CAN SAY. BUT ONE THING IS STILL IMPERFECT WITH HIM. HE CAN’T LOVE PERFECTLY. IT IS A BEAUTIFUL MORNING; THE SUN SET-UP HIGH; SMILING TO THE FLOWER AND LOOKING TO THE CHATTERING BIRDS. IT IS A GOOD DAY FOR skateboarding or playing basketball in the PARK. he CAN HEAR THE BALL TOUCHING THE RING HEAR ITS GOOD HARMONY. he IS TRYING TO ENJOY THE DAY BY PLAYING BASKETBALL or skateboarding AND FEELING THE BLAZE OF THE SUN AND THE MILDNESS OF THE WIND. HE IS PLAYING ALONE. NO ONE IS DISTURBING HIM. MEANWHILE, A GIRL IS WATCHING HIM FROM BEHIND. LOOKING AT HIM; ADMIRING ALL HIS MOVES. SHE REALLY ADMIRES Russell FROM THE FIRST TIME SHE HAD SAW HIM IN THE PARK. ONE NIGHT; IT WAS RAINING HARD; AND THE FLOWERS ARE CRYING WITH TEARS. A GIRL SAW A BOY, PLAYING UNDER THE TEARING CLOUDS. HE WAS TOTALLY WET, BUT STILL CONTINUING PLAYING. BUT BEHIND THOSE RAINDROPS AND BEHIND THOSE DRIBBLING BALL. A CRYING HEART CAN BE HEARD. THE GIRL SAW THE BOY CRYING WITHOUT TEARS. SHE FELT WEIRD. WEIRD BECAUSE SHE BECAME SAD. SAD BECAUSE OF THAT GUY? BUT WHY? SHE CAN’T EXPLAIN. BUT FROM THAT DAY; SHE SAW HER SELF ADMIRING THAT GUY. THAT GUY WHO CRIES WITHOUT TEARS. BACK TO THE PRESENT TIME. Russell STOP DRIBBLING. HE LOOKS AT THE SKY. CLOSE HIS EYES AND TAKE A DEEP BREATH. FEELING THE CALMNESS OF THE WIND AND THE HEAT OF THE SUN TOUCHING HIS SKIN. HE RETURNS HIS SIGHT AHEAD; LOOKING AT THE GIRL BEHIND HIM. HE LOOKS AT HER CURIOUSLY. THE GIRLS FACE WAS FAMILIAR TO HIM; BUT; HE CAN’T REMEMBER WHERE AND WHEN DOES HE SAW THAT GIRL. HE TOOK THE BALL AND SIT BESIDE THE GIRL. A QUIET CONVERSATION TAKES PLACE. A COLD WIND IS PASSING THROUGH THEIR VEINS. THEY WANT TO TALK EACH OTHER, BUT THERE HAS A BIG WALL TRYING TO FORCE THEM APART. Russell BRAVELY LOOK AT THE GIRL. BUT HE IS SURPRISED WHEN HE SAW THE GIRL LOOKING AT HIM. HE SAW THE GIRL’S EYES, CALM AND PURE. HE CAN SAW THE DEEPEST OF THE GIRL’S HEART WITHIN THOSE EYES; PEACEFUL BUT SAD. HE CAN’T UNDERSTAND HIS SELF. HIS HEART BEATS FASTER; LIKE A RUNNING CHEETAH ON A FOREST. THE GIRL SMILED AT HIM. A MAGICAL SMILE THAT MAKES HIS SELF FELT SO WEIRD THING. THE GIRL WAS THE ONE WHO STARTED THE CONVERSATION BY THOSE SMILE. A SMILE THAT GIVES WAY FOR BOTH OF THEM TO KNOW EACH OTHER WELL AND TO START THEIR ROMANTIC INTERLUDE. DAYS PASS; WEEKS AND THEN MONTHS. AND THEIR RELATIONSHIP BLOOMS. THEY are MADLY IN LOVE AND THEY DON’T WANT TO LOSE EACH OTHER. Russell; A GUY WHO CAN’T LOVE PERFECTLY. IS NOW BADLY IN LOVE WITH THAT GIRL? A GIRL WHO TOUCH HIS HEART BY THOSE SIMPLE SMILE. HE KNEW WITHIN HIS HEART THAT HE REALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH THAT GIRL. AND THE GIRL REALLY LOVES HIM, TOO. THEY NEVER FIGHT. THEY UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER LIKE A FREEZING WIND TOUCHING A MAIDEN HAIR. THE FLOW OF THEIR RELATIONSHIP STARTS TO GROW. THEY FELT THE SAME WEIRD FEELING WHEN THEY FIRST MET EACH OTHER. THEY THOUGHT THAT THEY KNEW EACH OTHER FROM THE FIRST TIME THEY HAD MET. BUT; THEY DON’T KNOW WHEN AND HOW. THEY JUST LEAVE THAT QUESTION IN A CORNER. JUST LEFT IT WITHOUT AN ANSWER. BECAUSE FOR THEM… NOW IS NOW AND LEAVE THE DOUBTFULNESS BEHIND.

AS DAYS GOES BY THEY KNEW THAT TIME NEVER STOPS AND THEIR LOVE WILL LAST LONG AND NO ONE CAN BLOCK IT. NO ONE. BUT ON THEIR FIRST ANNIVERSARY, WHERE THE RAIN IS DROPPING SO HARD; AND THE WIND IS CARRYING A LONELY SOUND. AN INCIDENT CAME AND MAKES THE WHOLE TIME. STOP. IT IS the 22nd day of October; a very QUIET AND PEACEFUL day. YOU CAN ONLY HEAR THE SOUND OF THE RAIN. DROPPING SOFTLY; FULL OF MEANING. Russell IS SITTING ALONE IN A RESTAURANT; LOOKING OUTSIDE THE WINDOW AND WATCHING THE UNLIGHTED PILLAR THAT MAKES THE WHOLE PART DARK. IT IS PASSED 7PM ALREADY. BUT NO SIGN OF THE GIRL. he RETURNS HIS SIGHT TO THE OUTSIDE; AND SAW HIS GIRL AT THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROAD. SHE IS HOLDING AN UMBRELLA AND WEARING A BEAUTIFUL DRESS. SHE LOOKS BEAUTIFUL. THE GIRL SMILES AT HIM MAGICALLY. HE RETURNED A SMILE ALSO. BUT SUDDENLY; WHEN THE GIRL IS CROSSING THE STREET. A RUNNING CAR PASSED THROUGH AND HIT THE GIRL WITH A BIG FORCE. he SAW THE WHOLE INCIDENT. HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. THE TIME STOP. HE MADLY STANDS FROM HIS SIT AND FINDS HIS SELF RUNNING TOWARDS THE GIRL’S PLACE. HE HOLDS THE GIRL VERY TIGHT. THE GIRL WAS EYE-OPENED. LOOKING AT HIM. Russell LOOKED AT HER. HIS EYES ARE STARTING TO FILLED WITH MOIST. A WATER. A TEAR. THE GIRL SMILED AT HIM. SHE WIPES Russell EYES AND TOLD HIM. “AT LAST; I SEE YOU AGAIN CRYING, CRYING WITH TEARS.” AND THEN HER HANDS FALL DOWN. HER EYES CLOSED SLOWLY; HER BREATH GONE; AND HER HEART STOPS BEATING. NO SOUNDS. NO BEAT. russell IS UNCONSCIOUS BY THAT TIME. HE CAN’T TALK. HE CAN’T MOVE HIS BODY AS WELL. UNTIL. HE SAW HIS SELF. SHOUTING VERY LOUD. CRYING AND HOLDING THE DEAD BODY OF THE GIRL. THE GIRL THAT SHE LOVED. THE GIRL THAT GAVE HER A WEIRD FEELINGS. A FEELING OF LOVE. A PERFECT LOVE. DAYS HAD PASSED AND WEEKS STEP AHEAD AND he IS TRYING TO MOVE-ON. HE CANNOT FORGET THE GIRL THAT SHE LOVED. UNTIL ONE DAY. SOMEONE CAME TO HIS HOUSE. THE GUY IS HOLDING AN ENVELOP AND GAVE IT TO HIM. HE OPENED THE ENVELOP AND SAW A PICTURE. A PICTURE OF A TWO CHILDREN. A BOY AND A GIRL. HE IS SURPRISE ON WHAT HE HAD SAW. THE BOY. THE LITTLE BOY IN THE PICTURE, IT WAS HIM. HE CRIEd. HE REMEMBER AN INCIDENT FROM HIS PAST. IT WAS RAINING. A LITTLE BOY AND HIS FAMILY WENT TO A VACATION. BY THAT DAY; HE LEFT THE REST HOUSE WHERE THEY ARE STAYING. HE GOES TO THE NEAREST RIVER AND SAW A BEAUTIFUL RABBIT. HE FOLLOWED THAT RABBIT WITHOUT NOTICING THAT HE GOT LOST. LOST IN THAT TOWN. HE STARTS CRYING. HE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. UNTIL A YOUNG GIRL CAME. SHE ASKS HIM WHY HE WAS CRYING. THE GIRL LENDS HIM A LOLLIPOP. AND THEN HE STOPS CRYING. THEY BECAME FRIENDS EVEN THOUGH IT WAS THEIR FIRST MET. THEY RUN UNDER THE RAIN AND THEY GOT WET. THEY BOTH LAUGH. AND THEN THE GIRL BRINGS THE BOY BACK TO HIS HOUSE. BUT BEFORE THEY SEPARATE APART. THEY TAKE A PICTURE; AS A SIGN OF THEIR FRIENDSHIP. AND THEN THE NEXT DAY. THE BOY LEFT THE TOWN. BUT HE PROMISED TO THE GIRL, THAT HE WILL NEVER FORGET HER. AND HE GAVE THE PICTURE TO THE LITTLE GIRL. AS A REMEMBRANCE. THE GIRL IS HIS FIRST FRIEND AND HIS FIRST LOVE. he CAN’T BELIEVE THAT HE FORGOT HIS FRIEND. HE FAILED HIS PROMISE. AND NOW HE REALIZE. THAT THE LITTLE GIRL IN THE PICTURE AND THE GIRL THAT SHE LOVED AT THE PRESENt IS THE SAME. HE CRIED AGAIN. TEARS FELL DOWN FROM HIS EYES. HE HOLDS THE PICTURE VERY ON HIS CHEST, VERY TIGHT AND A COLD WIND TOUCHES HIS FACE. HE CAN FEEL THE GIRL’S HAND WIPING HIS TEARS. HE KNEW IT WAS THE GIRL. HE CLOSES HIS EYES AND SMILES. HE NOW REALIZED THAT IN EVERY TEARS THAT FELL FROM HIS EYES THE GIRL WILL WIPE IT. HE WILL NEVER FORGET THAT GIRL. THE GIRL WHO IS ALWAYS THERE IF HE WAS CRYING, THE GIRL THAT MAKES HIS WHOLE WORLD UPSIDE-DOWN.

THE GIRL THAT GAVE HIM A PERFECT LOVe AND A PERFECT HURT…